5.01.2013

Mennonite Meat-Filled Bread


Every culture seems to ask a universal question of its cooks:
Hey, where’s the meat-filled bread?

Italians have calzones. The Chinese – dim sum. The Polish fill pirogi. Armenians – Manti. Tibetans stuff momo with beef or yak. 

This multicultural culinary fact smacked me in the face again recently. A sweet little spot, The Bun Shop, just opened around the corner from me in Baltimore. Specialty Buns reads the gold lettering on the front door, and inside the pastry case reads out their rift on that universal question. The Rotiboy - challah filled with salted butter and topped with sugared crust. The Paraguayan Empanada’s inner life is one of beef, chiles and bits of hard boiled egg.


Mennonites, Russian Mennonites in this case, have certainly answered this meat-filled bread question as well. Their answer – the bierock.

The bierock is made with a sweet roll dough folded over a mixture traditionally made of ground beef, cabbage and onion. The gesture of sweetness in the dough plays nicely with the salty meat, and as in every bun situation its construction allows a portable and sturdy meal. On occasion I make a great big batch - freezing most and popping a couple in the oven on nights I don’t feel like standing in front of the stove.

But tradition is threatened in descending into mere museum fare without a bit of innovation. Today’s home bakers find a myriad of innovations for the bierock. Stuffed with pizza toppings, lamb and bitter greens, egg and sausage. Figs and fennel, apple compote, quince paste, chocolate pudding with cookie dough chunks. 



Looking back at the bierock, we see exactly why migration matters: The Mennonite faith originated in northern Europe shortly after the Reformation, but eventually a group split off and settled in Poland for a time, then onto southern Russia. Due to tensions with the Russian government, most of this group then moved to North America - Kansas, Nebraska, and Manitoba, Canada mostly.

In their luggage, the bierock – surely influenced by the Polish perogi, and the Crimean cherbureki

At age 10, the first time I remember having a bierock, I didn’t think of those golden hand warmers as Mennonite or Russian. They were simply one of the things we never ate in Texas where I grew up, which somehow elevated them to exotic.

And on at least one occasion bierocks were among the delicious things created when my favorite women gathered in a kitchen – my mother and her three sisters, my cousins, my grandmother, and of course my sisters.


At most of our gatherings, the supper table stretched out as far as it could extend, leaves placed in the middle of its belly. In the dining room of my aunt Diane’s farmhouse in Hesston, Kansas, I have seen at least 25 people seated at that table. Its burliness accepting the weight of the chaos.

On that particular day only the women received invitation. These gatherings are dubbed Estefests as in Estrogen Festivals. They are loud, raucous, filled with old farm stories and fresh updates. Food is instrumental and indulgent.

At that particular Estefest, we made beirocks. The thing is when I asked my grandmother about that bierock day recently, she replied:
#1. “I don’t remember the day at all.”
#2. “I don’t even really like bierocks.”

This grandmother, my mother's mother, did not grow up Mennonite, nor did she “convert” as an adult. But she worked in a bakery that made their traditional foods, and had a Menno mother-in-law, Keturah.
So perhaps this memory of mine was not so much one of “passing on family tradition”. Instead simply an excuse to be together. Arguably the most valuable thing we can ask of our food.

After a long absence from my plate in any valuable way (Read: I would make them, but they weren’t very good), the bierock came back into my consciousness when I was in my 20’s during a visit back to Hesston for the holidays… A new coffee shop had opened in town – The Lincoln Perk. There in the pastry case, patiently awaiting a patron, sat the buns.

But these particular bierocks exceeded my memory’s expectation of them, and certainly any of my own attempts over the years. I left intrigued somehow. Who was this baker keeping the dying bierock alive in this tiny coffeeshop? And how could I join in? 

2.28.2013

How I Found Home and Sweet Butter Rolls


In the last thirteen months, I have made a giant U across the United States. Portland to Santa Fe to Charleston and now… to Baltimore. 

I have learned a lot in those thirteen months… how to make cookies with fruity pebbles, how to make pudding with pig’s blood, how to ask for help.

Also, I learned how much I really, really loathe cardboard.

It is the most exhausting raw material I can think of. The smell and sight abhorring - all mildew and armpit, donning the least imaginable color – not chestnut or chocolate, just a muted, despairing brown.

There exists this peak in the chaos of moving in which the cardboard is particularly taunting. All your stuff is in limbo… No longer in your closet but not really in a box yet either. It’s all just strewn about, angry-looking. And those miserable boxes gape open, hollering about all the work to be done

The boxes morphed into a public reading of diaries:
Dishes. Loaf pans. Ramekins.
S for Storage Unit.
G for Goodwill
X for Ready To Go
Two entire medium-sized boxes reading “Menno Cookbooks”.

It was at those points in the chaos when I most craved a kitchen. To refocus. To take a breath while my hands are in motion. To smell the sense of home in a warm loaf of bread.

Cardboard is, after all, the antithesis of home.

By the time I left Charleston for Baltimore, I had whittled the stack of boxes down to about a measly, liberating 10. Along with my old trunk, woven basket, a couple Rubbermaid bins, and a few suitcases, they all squeezed into the back of a rented minivan and traveled up the I-95 corridor.

I lived in Santa Fe just long enough to feel its effects – the obscene sunlight and roasting green chiles. But I wasn’t there quite long enough for it to feel like home.

In Charleston, living in my sister and brother in law’s home along with my niece and nephew, I certainly felt the intimacy of family. We shared our morning rituals of eggs and coffee with unflustered ease. I was afforded the privileged, up-close view of my Sarah's creative process as a painter. Sofie learned to read. Zeke discovered his love of scooters. Matt built a slide, a chicken coop, a rabbit hutch, and my bike rack. I became Aunt Katie who brought home sweet treats from work, always carried orange gum, and played Apples in Stereo on car rides.

"You're kind of like the second Mom," Sofie once said as we pulled pajamas over her head.  


photo by Sarah Boyts Yoder


But still, that was not my home. Most of my things were still in that damn cardboard, patiently awaiting a more permanent placement.

In the last year, there has occasionally been this surreal stinging sensation. It happens most at airports.
I just want to go home. I’d think. (insert melodramatic voice of a five year old)
Then the punch … There isn’t one.

Inside a giant buzzing scanner, feet wide, hands raised above my head, with some cranky lady staring at my guts, all I could think about is that elusive place of home. And the sting of its absence.

In those inescapable moments in the scanner, I tried to lean in, curious about the experience. I started to question… What is home anywayWe think of it as that physical space in which our artifacts of life are nestled into their particular spots. Photos hung. Dishes put away. Rugs take their spot on the floor.
We are warm there. Grounded. Comfortable.

It’s not that I’ve created some idyllic fantasy about home. Portland had rain. Santa Fe had moths. Charleston had sweat. Baltimore will have... something. And there are always dishes after dinner.

But still… the craving exists and if we can’t access that home… What next?

Well, for me, I bake. Because home is, at its core, a sensual experience. Not simply the scenery of our things. Silky textures of dough, bread crust singing as it's drawn out of the oven, the smell of yeast and flour and butter bloomed under heat.

The smell of freshly baked bread, and I can feel my chest let go. I’m back to my favorite bakery in Portland, my grandmother’s kitchen in Kansas, my mother’s supper table at Christmas. Those were most certainly homes.








And in that case home becomes much more accessible. It is here in my hands, a few ingredients, and a very hot oven - I really need nothing more.

I think Baltimore shall be home. At least the cardboard is gone. And my basket has found itself a corner, all my books have shelves.

Most importantly I have my breath, my hands, a sack of flour, and a hot, ready oven.




This recipe for sweet butter rolls comes from Jeanette Wedel in Hesston, Kansas. Stay in tune for more about Jeanette and the versatility of this beautiful dough. On this particular baking, I did my usual thing - looked in the frig, spotted a few inspiring elements, and decided to revamp the plan. So I stuffed many of the rolls with odds and ends - diced apples, a leftover bolognese sauce, cheese, quince paste. Do the same or stick with the straight dinner rolls. 

I'm giving this recipe in volume and weights. I highly recommend investing in a scale if you don't have one. Because at the end of the day, your cup of flour will likely never equal my cup of flour. 



Sweet Butter Rolls
adapted from Jeanette Wedel

yield: 12 medium size rolls


3 1/4 cup flour, bread or all purpose (450 grams)

1 cup cool water (226 grams)
2 1/4 teaspoons instant yeast (9 grams)
3/4 Tablespoon salt (9 grams) 
1/2 cup granulated sugar (100 grams)
1/2 cup dry milk powder (79 grams)
1/2 cup unsalted butter, room temp (114 grams)


1. In the bowl of a stand mixer, fitted with the dough hook, combine all ingredients. Turn mixer on lowest speed and mix for 3 minutes. Turn the machine off, let the dough rest for about 5 minutes, then mix again on lowest speed for another 2 to 3 minutes, or until the dough passes the windowpane test.* 


*Windowpane test: Pinch a small piece of dough and spread it apart with your fingertips to try and create a translucent pane. If the dough tears, mix it again for another minute and then retest. If the dough stays in tact and creates the translucent pane, it's ready to go!


2. Once the dough is ready, transfer it to a lightly-oiled mixing bowl and cover with plastic wrap. Let rise for one hour, and "punch down". (You can literally stick your fist in the dough or, as I prefer, fold it over onto itself and then turn over.)


3. Let rise again for another hour. Then transfer to lightly floured surface. Divide the dough evenly into twelve portions. I weigh mine out - about 60 grams each roll. Shape them into balls and let them rise again, on parchment-lined baking sheet, for another 30 to 60 minutes, or until - when you press them with your finger they don't spring back. 


Meanwhile, preheat your oven to 375. 


4. When the rolls are ready, transfer them to the oven and bake them for 15 minutes, rotate, and bake about 15 minutes more or until they are golden brown. At the 15 minute mark, you can do an egg wash* to make them shiny. 


*An egg wash consists of 1 egg, beaten, with a Tablespoon of water. Brush a bit onto each roll for a shiny surface. 


5. Remove from oven and let cool on a wire rack or serve warm. 

Enjoy!

10.31.2012

The Reading List

Anybody remember Book It? ... That Pizza Hut reading program where, as an elementary school student, you could earn that super-exciting coupon for a personal pan pizza simply by reading books! As I remember it, this pizza prize was basically about 4 ounces of grease in a tiny cast iron pan, lightly dusted with tomatoes and cheese. But whatever... we all read more because of Book It. Or at least I did. So Thumbs Up to those folks! (No, I'm not being paid to say this, by they way. I can guarantee you that Pizza Hut really does not give a care what I say.)



Regardless of the gastronomic disappointment, those Pizza Hut bookworm dinners really are a sweet memory. Because more exciting than any tiny pizza was the fact that, in our family, a Book It coupon earned you a dinner date to the Hut with Dad. (I have 3 siblings... one-on-one time with anything was a prized possession.) Father and daughter sitting in a vinyl booth over those 4 ounces of grease was about as dreamy as it got as a youth.

There it is again... Words and food... bringing us together.
Like here. Right now. Via my current reading list... (Presuming you care more than Pizza Hut)

Blog...
Elise Hofer Derstine, writer and farmer in Goshen, Indiana, (who you may remember from her interview here!) recently started publishing her words on her own blog, Hoof and Wings. Her latest posts (which come out each Thursday) are about the lovely story of her grandparent's courtship and their road to farming. Consider me hooked and awaiting Thursday.

Photo courtesy Elise Hofer Derstine







Cookbook... 
Momofuku Milk Bar by Christina Tosi.
Tosi's recipes are fun and creative. She doesn't take herself too seriously, reminds me of the playful because at the end of the day... it really is just a cookie. Why not have fun?
That said, it's a really really really good cookie.

Cornflake. Chocolate. Marshmallow. Crunch. Right?! Right.
Today I unashamedly made Fruity Pebble Crunch Cookies. Then ice cream sandwiches with lemongrass ice cream (because it turns out lemongrass ice cream tastes EXACTLY like Fruity Pebbles).

Here's the recipe for the cornflake cookies. Me? I took out the chocolate and subbed about a third of the cornflakes for oats. You?

Novel...
The Joke by Milan Kundera. Kundera's words, and his ability to get you in so deeply in the heads of his characters make me feel full. In the best way possible.

Do stories, apart from happening, being, have something to say? For all my skepticism, some trace of irrational superstition did survive in me, the strange conviction, for example, that everything in life that happens to me also has a sense, that it means something, that life speaks to us about itself through its story...


The Random...  
Poem on my frig



Read the full poem by Machado here.

xoxo, 
Katie @ The Shoofly

10.23.2012

The Answer is Pastry (and I love you)

I know what you're thinking. And I love you too.
Oh wait. that's not what you were thinking? Well, one can dream. (And I still love you.)
Especially if you took that survey way back when. Your responses were overwhelmingly helpful! So overwhelming that I went comatose for a bit. See blogs are always so hungry, and sometimes a gal is just too tired to cook every night.
Then I woke up.
Yeah, you. Fact

Also sometimes I am seized with decision paralysis. Like trying to order food at a counter while staring UP at the menu on the wall (like those trendy chalkboard menus... bah!) sends me into a stuttering stress response. I'm trying to learn to breathe through it. Which is what the last several months have amounted to... several deep and quiet breaths.

If you're gracious enough to still be reading (thank you thank you thank you) here's the plan... 
  • NOT attempt to write Mastering the Art of French Cooking... for Mennonites (at this point). 
  • Peel away pieces and stick them in the "To Do In My Lifetime" file. 
  • Choose one piece and stick it in the "To Do This Year" file. 
  • The answer, that one piece I breathed a lot to get to, is... PASTRY! Mennonite baked goods galore shall be the aim. 
So perhaps you were actually thinking... "Reeaaal nice, Katie... You go and promise us cookbooks and then you just waft away like the Carolina breeze. Into the world of beaches, sorghum cakes, and loafers sans socks. " Touche.  Let me break the ice for all our future affairs with cute pictures of children.

photo courtesy of Sarah Boyts Yoder


That last one is Sofie drawing a name from Zeke's (my nephew) fireman's hat. A very dear reader who took the survey was in fact chosen that day. And then promptly elected A Girl and Her Pig by April Bloomfield.

Then I got all caught up in that breathing thing, a niece doing spectacular things like growing fingernails, a sister getting married, another doing amazing artwork (see below) a few lovely east coast excursions, and of course some kitchen work with the creatives at Two Boroughs Larder.

With that... I'm back and I'll see you quite soon!


xoxo, 
Katie


That's my sister getting married. That's me singing Business Time in my head to keep from weeping. 

east coast excursion = baltimore
Sister Sarah's most recent work... Loving the culinary themes.
Where one finds the milk when living with toddlers. 

8.07.2012

Cookbook Giveaway! And the Future of The Shoofly

I wish I could share a supper with you at an actual table, perhaps discussing the nuances of wiggle glace (pictured below), a Julia Kasdorf poem, or how much you love the summer. The dinner table holds the richest and most human of conversations. It's my favorite spot to be planted.



My brother Matt was visiting last weekend, and for us it was homemade pizza and his memories of Nicaragua - all the proof anyone needs that something special happens at the supper table.

But I suppose for you and I the virtual table will have to suffice for the moment. And at the heart of any good dinner conversation, virtual or otherwise, is the good question... From apertif to red to digestif, it's a necessity for us to sit and stay and sip awhile.

In that spirit, there’s 10 questions right here, begging your answer – a SURVEY! The Shoofly's first-ever survey in fact. And it’s been my experience that any good survey comes with a potential prize for the surveyed… so answer said questions and you’re in the Shoofly Project’s raffle!

Winner of the raffle will be announced next week, drawn by my unbiased niece Sofia Yoder.  (cause what’s better than a 4 year old drawing names out of hats?)

The prize? A cookbook of course! Your choice of... 
A Girl and Her Pig by April Bloomfield
Saving the Seasons by Mary Clemens Meyer and Susanna Meyer
The Pie and Pastry Bible by Rose Levy Beranbaum

Speaking of questions - Why a survey? …Well I’ve been thinking a lot about the future of The Shoofly Project, and it has occurred to me frequently that it needs a more specific shape. Otherwise, the vague nature of “Mennonite food and culture” seems to be threatening its very existence and identity.  

Vagueness is hard to make vivid. Specificity, vagueness's antithesis, has a much more predictable and palatable nature. I’m reminded of the advice: Don’t overwhelm the palate with too many flavors – otherwise we can’t enjoy the taste of any

Two particulars became clear as I looked at the blog’s history and also just up at my bedroom wall.
On the blog and book plan: Lots of pig and lots of pie. 
On the wall: My grandmother’s hands and a pie crust and a pig from Drywell Quality Meat Art.






So a theme emerges…
Pork and Pastry.
Sugar and Swine.
Sweet and Meat.
Bacon and Baking. ok ok I'm stopping. 
   
I think these two beasts are perhaps the answer to the vagueness question. The question then is whether or not to really focus the lens of subject matter to those two? That’s where you and the survey and the cookbook raffle come in! 
So do tell... Is Pork and Pastry a good paring?

7.26.2012

Peach Galettes and Mascarpone Orange Blossom Cream

I am now several weeks into life in Charleston, and the stickiest parts of transition are thankfully behind me – finding work (pastry chef at Two Boroughs Larder and blogger at mac & murphy), a new bike, and a few solidly great girlfriends. So with all that achieved we can begin to immerse ourselves in the best food beginning I can think of in America’s south… The Peach.

Obviously.



Frankly, I was a bit salty about my fruit situation when I initially arrived. I left Santa Fe before the strawberries came on, and then arrived in Charleston after they had all been picked and devoured. What sweetened me amidst this berry tragedy was the illustrious South Carolina peach... the farmer’s market is teeming with their gold. 

At a recent trip to the market I found a particularly peach-adorned stand and asked the farmer if I could sample the goods. He nodded enthusiastically, seemingly thrilled with my audacious request. I find it to be a good sign – a farmer who displays fervor in fruit tastings.

So he confidently took up his paring knife, and with bare, soil-stained hands cut the fruit in half, juice dripping from his palms. He graciously gifted me the entire thing, and I felt how purely southern summer the moment was. I loved it! … The weather was hot and thickly humid, the people were overtly friendly, there were southern women wearing high heels and twangy accents. And I was eating peaches.

My own palms filled with the fruit’s liquid. They were like saucepans waiting for a task, and yet the task was simpler than any sauce... Just sink in. 
The peach was totally glorious. Smooth, without a hint of grain or mush. Ripened and sweet, the fuzz giving it a refreshing rawness. I think I may have given the farmer a high five. Ok yes I definitely gave him a high five. That peach was, after all, why the best dessert I’ve ever had is a simple, unadorned, piece of fruit.

All that is really required for absolute joy is the expectation that what is simple is also what is enough. 

That said, there are times when we want to play with and charm our produce. For instance, orange blossom water plays beautifully with peaches. Orange blossom water is a perfumed, clear distillation of... you guessed it... orange blossoms.  Added to mascarpone and cream, a classic is reborn smelling like my heaven.
So simplicity meets slight refinement, and yet retains its glory.
Not overboard, not complicated.
Just Enough. 

photo by Matthew Yoder


Mini Peach Galettes 
with Mascarpone Orange Blossom Cream

I made these golden nuggets for the Larder this week, using nectarines when I ran out of peaches. Both were fantastic. The pastries can be made in advance, filling and all, and then frozen till you’re ready to bake... They’re actually better if frozen first. The cream, however, will only be at its best the same day you make it. Orange blossom water can be found at most international grocery stores.

Yields 5 individual galettes

The Filling:
6 large peaches
1/2 cup sugar
juice of 1 lemon
1 Tablespoon kirsch (optional)
2 teaspoons flour

1. Peel and slice peaches. Tip: To peel, bring a pot of water to boil. Cut a small X at the base of the peach and carefully immerse all the fruit in the boiling water for 60 seconds. Drain and run cold water over the peaches to cool them down. Skins should peel off easily.
2. Place peeled fruit in a large mixing bowl, and add the sugar, kirsch, and lemon juice. Set aside to macerate for 30 minutes.
3. Drain the resulting juices, and set aside. Add the flour to the peaches and chill in refrigerator.
4. In a medium-sized sauce pan, reduce the reserved juices on medium heat till they just begin to thicken. (It will thicken more as it cools.) Set aside and allow to cool.  

The Pastry:
Note: Feel free to use your favorite pie crust recipe here. This is my preferred version on this particular day. But hey… that’s me. 
Replace the lard with butter if you're without lard. 
Replace the pastry flour with AP flour if you're without pastry. 

¾ cup all purpose flour
¾ cup pastry flour
1 teaspoon kosher salt
2 teaspoons sugar
6 Tablespoons unsalted butter, cubed and chilled
3 Tablespoons leaf lard, broken into chunks and chilled
5-6 Tablespoons cold water

1. Whisk together the flours, salt, and sugar in a large mixing bowl.
2. With your fingertips, rub the butter and lard into the flour mixture till broken into small chunks about the size of peas. Some can be smaller. Some can be bigger.
3. Make a small well in the middle of the mixture and add 1 Tablespoon of cold water. With your palms facing upwards, toss the mixture lightly to incorporate the water. Continue adding water, 1 Tablespoon at a time until the dough comes together.
4. Form the dough into a disc, wrap in plastic, and chill in the frig for at least 15 minutes.
Tips: Use the ball of dough as a sponge to mop up remaining flour.
Use as little water as possible. Too much water will make the final crust chewy – not what we’re going for. Also the flour will become more hydrated as it rests in the frig.
5. Divide the disc into 5 equal portions. If you have a scale, you can weigh them out… Each should weigh about 2.5 ounces. On a lightly floured work surface, roll out the dough to about 5 or 6 inches in diameter. Using a small bowl as stencil, cut the dough into a circle. Transfer to baking sheet and refrigerate. Repeat this with each portion.
6. Brush the center of each crust with the the reserved juices, leaving about 2 inches on the outside border.



7. Place slices of peach in one layer in the center, again leaving about 2 inches. Bring the edge of the crust towards the center and make a fold every 1 or 2 inches, pinching to seal the fold. Now add another layer of peaches. Repeat with remaining pastries. Place galettes in freezer till ready for baking. 

The Cream:
Adapted from Ad Hoc
2 eggs, separated
¼ cup sugar
¼ cup mascarpone, at room temp
½ cup cream, cold
1 Tablespoon orange blossom water

1. In a medium-sized mixing bowl, whisk egg whites till foamy. Add 2 Tablespoons of the sugar and continue whisking (furiously whisking!) till you obtain stiff peaks. Set this aside.
2. In large mixing bowl, whisk together egg yolks and remaining 2 Tablespoons of sugar. Whisk in mascarpone till incorporated.
3. In another bowl, whisk the heavy cream and orange blossom water (again, get furious on it!) until medium peaks form.
4. To the yolk mixture, fold in the whipped cream one third at a time. Then fold in the egg whites one third at a time, just until combined. Too much folding and you’ll lose the air you’ve worked so hard create.
5. Cover and chill for at least 2 hours or for up to 1 day.

Bake and Serve!
1. Remove the galettes from the freezer and immediately place in a 375 degree preheated oven. Meanwhile, rewarm the remaining reduced fruit sauce in small saucepan over low heat. 
Tip: Never let a frozen pastry defrost before you bake it… A soggy mess you will have.
2. After about 10 minutes, reduce heat to 350 and bake for another 20 minutes or until the crust is golden brown and the peaches begin to brown. Remove from the oven and brush with sauce. Cool on wire baking rack.
Serve with a very generous portion of the cream right on top.

Mid-cooling. Pre-cream.

7.05.2012

The Hope in the Marshmallow Tree, Part 5


What Charleston often looks like


From Atlanta to Charleston is a mere 5 hours and 300 miles. I’d told myself this many times as I prepped for the last leg of the trip.... 5 hours... a drop in the bucket compared to what had come before. 

But 5 measly hours turned into what felt like the longest stretch in all of America. I took the back roads, thinking the more scenic routes of Georgia would provoke some pleasant sense of nostalgia within. Perhaps I would have the energy to stop at the funky roadside diners who promised crawfish and catfish and more fried okra. It could be the perfect end to the long week. 

The novelty of the back roads dwindled quickly though, and for most of the drive I couldn't muster the energy to stop and pee, much less stop and taste the flavors of backwoods Georgia. 

Keturah’s diary of 1972 had been sitting accessible in the glove compartment the entire trip, set aside from the others who found home in their blue Rubbermaid.

Her life in 1972 had dramatically changed on two fronts... The aforementioned death of her husband Fred. And then her subsequent move from the farm to Schowalter Villa, the town’s Mennonite retirement center. In the days leading up to the move, through the lens of her daily writings, she vacillates.
April 5, 1972: I wanted to see the apartment they want me to go into at the Villa. Phoebe Yoder's apartment. I was really excited over it. 

April 6, 1972: But not quite as excited as I was last evening. 

April 15, 1972: So busy thinking about moving to the Villa. I do not want to go but feel it would be wise - as Pop had planed so much, for us both to go and now everything is changed. I am glad he could spend his last night here in our own little home on the far. But I think he would have been content in the apartment. 

Like Keturah, I was shuffling between two phases of life, trying to sift through the various available emotions.

And in a moment I didn't have the geographical foresight to anticipate I suddenly became a South Carolinian as I passed the big "Welcome!" sign. So far South Carolinian felt like a heavy heart, heavy eyelids and an impatient bladder. 

The beautiful city of Charleston did finally appear - exactly 5 long hours from the Atlanta departure and 6 long days from Santa Fe. I drove straight to meet the family at a restaurant downtown. The family includes sister Sarah, brother-in-law Matt, niece Sofia, and nephew Zeke. 

Some small piece of the the intricately-designed cobweb in my head cleared away as I had hugged my older sister and watched Sofia jump up and down behind her, a huge grin beaming off her little face, “Aunt Katie! Aunt Katie!”.


In the corner of the patio Sofie and Zeke had found a small niche within which they could create their own little home. I joined them there, their delight feeling contagious. Sofie gave me tour... 
“Here is the kitchen (she sweeps her little 4 year old arm over to the left railing of the roof). And here is our garden… This our cherry tree and our peach tree. And this is my favorite - our marshmallow tree. (she points to the 3 small potted bushes lining the railing).”

She is building her own world wherever she please, constructed of anything she pleases. A marshmallow tree… why not? I am building one here too and in the tiny corner of that patio, tucked away in their dreamy play garden, rife with fresh produce and sugar, is where it began.

There is hope in her marshmallow tree, I thought, more than in any car or clock or even a diary. Her marshmallow tree was beautiful, lush with gleaming white fruit and deep, deep roots , and I think… There is hope in marshmallows after all.

6.27.2012

How To Get Swindled for Oysters in New Orleans, Part 4


New Orleans has the power to pause clocks. In the Big Easy, it feels as though Shanda and I are launched back to some past century where old laws keep developers are kept at bay. They limit donut chains and burger drive thrus, keep the beignets frying and the gumbo simmering, and maintain the fragrance of booze. The French Quarter is pungent with the smells... piss and booze, coffee and cigarettes. The textures of the place were like no where in America I'd been. 

We check into our hotel and immediately take to the streets, our legs aching for movement. Brass bands and karaoke blast from the street corners on Bourbon Street. Tuneless tourists crone along. And in my pocket, my cell phone chimes in with the dings of text messages,
 “How are you? Where are you? Drive safe. We love you.”
From Oregon, Indiana, Texas, South Carolina, Illinois, New Mexico, Kansas... I had a solid entourage among the karaoke with that wonderful ding.

In the morning, at Café du Monde patio, where only cash is accepted and beignets, the French donut, are the only menu item other than coffee, we joyously sit for a morning. The accompanying tink tink of the dishes, ceramic on ceramic, is almost harmonic with the place's chatter.

A lovely, albeit apathetic, waitress plops down two perfectly balanced café au laits and a plate of the beignets. I love watching the silent dust storm of powdered sugar being carried off by the breeze over the bricks. The servers are covered with a fine white paste, the thickness seems to tell of their tenure.



And the slightly greasy, sugary, doughy morsels on the plate... they were sheer and vivid joy. I could feel the entire outdoor patio pulse with every beignet-consumer’s giddy pleasure. Shanda and I happily joined in the pulsating. I felt a kid at Christmas - people bringing me sweets, all that sugary snow floating around.

The mural by the Cafe du Monde patio

The city also sounded a lot like laughter. The laugh I remember most is that of the middle-aged local fellow we dined with. He (let’s call him Kevin) chortled all the way home, I'm sure of it, after having swindled us two naïve tourists for at least 2 dozen oysters and a couple beers.

Our time with Kevin began as he walked with us through the streets of the French quarter, giving us the golden “local” take on the city – how it was before the storm, where his family had gone, who had the best jazz and the best oysters. Ooh Oysters… “Let’s go get some!”

Charmed by his tour-guide capabilities, and the absence of any sexual prowess, we agree and head to Remoulades. The three of us settle in happily at the oyster bar, where Joe schmoozes with the resident shucker. Kevin schmoozes and orders and eats, and then repeats. Plate after plate of oysters, he orders and eats and schmoozes, waving his hand with an “Bah!... No worries... It’s on me!”
Oysters on the half shell.
Charbroiled Oysters.
Baked Oysters - Rockefeller, Bienvelle, and Suzette.





Then quite suddenly Kevin needs to step outside for a “smoke break”. And with that… he wafts away down Bourbon Street like a breeze off the gulf, without even a dime for the cocktail sauce. The $100 restaurant bill is handed to us as the shucker shakes his head, and slips off his shucking glove. Tsk tsk Tourists, he seems to say.

But we’re too happy not to laugh at our naivete... See I have a theory that raw seafood gives a swift kick of endorphins to the head, so getting swindled in New Orleans for a few dozen oysters… Things could be worse. The night proceeds with a high buoyancy and only mild disbelief.

But the interlude over beignets must end, and the inevitable approaches. Shanda must fly back to Fargo and her husband Peter, and I must drive on to Charleston. We spend our final night together in a dingy airport hotel in Atlanta. We eat Papa John’s pizza, and appropriately, watch Tina Fey on 30 Rock. 

6.25.2012

Traveling with Shanda and Tina Fey, Part 3

If you're just joining us... Welcome!  Catch up on this Road Trip series in... 
Part 1, Keturah's Fast and My Unexpected Road Trip
Part 2, Leaf Lard and the Woven Basket. 

Every road trip comes with an inherent romanticism, a keen sense of possibility as constant movement breeds unpredictability. Who you will meet, what you will see, where you will eat - it's all in constant flux. And the truth is... I’m a romantic deep down. Although previously the movement, of clock hands and cars headed east, felt ominous, something had shifted in Fort Worth. 
I began to feel the possibilities again.

In Fort Worth, my mother added to my woven basket - granola, cookies, cinnamon rolls wrapped in foil and smelling like Christmas. To the car I added my best friend Shanda, who had from flown in from Fargo, North Dakota with the sole purpose of sitting beside me in a car for 17 hours.
Fort Worth to Atlanta, with a two day stop in New Orleans. 

A George Strait spotting at the necessary western-wear stop in Cowtown!




With Shanda there, the possibilities felt endless. For this particular adventure, Shanda had made 10 mix cds to act as our soundtrack. So we set off on a Sunday morning, and popped in Road Trip Music, Part One which started off with a bang... "None of Your Business" by Salt-N-Pepa.  

There were four categories to this set of 10 cds.
1    1. Texas Travellin’ Tunes
2    2. Moving Forward! 
3    3. Road Trip Music
4    4. Break-ups Suck

She’d also brought a gift - wrapped in a colorful scarf, she called it my “Congrats on Not Marrying That Guy!” gift. (Not because she didn’t like the guy… It’s not always about him. Sheesh.) I reluctantly decided to wait to open the gift, delaying gratification so as to cushion a future hard moment I was sure would come. So I placed the gift in the backseat next to the cooler, grinned at Shanda, and drove on.



Riding shotgun, Shanda planted her feet on the dash and her pink sunglasses on her face. 
Volume up. Windows down, we sang and played air piano to "Anthony’s Song" by Billy Joel from Moving Forward, part 2, "Idiot Wind" by Bob Dylan from Break Ups Suck, part 1, and "Africa" by Toto - Road Trip, part 3. I could feel the clocks turning back.

Back to moments in college where we had embarked in cars with similar senses of playfulness. Back to junior year of college as our group of women drove 24 hours straight from Goshen, Indiana to southern Florida in my tan Buick Century, equipped with a boombox powered by D batteries. Shanda and I improvising songs about passing scenery when the batteries died. I owned a video camera at the time, which would get promptly propped on the enormous dashboard when we hit a lull. We recorded such traveling classics as "Hello, I'm a Truck". (Of note, all these tapes got stolen in our Goshen House Robbery 2005. So if you're out there putting our "music" on the internet... Well... please don't.)

In the blue Subaru we considered the way we and our lives have evolved, how lucky we were that our clocks were still coordinated. We have gone through the celebrations and devastations with each other long enough to know what questions needed asking and which ones were answered long ago.

Me: “How is your brother doing? How are you feeling about God in the midst of the healing process?”.
And how is your mother holding up? How is her garden?
What’s happening with your thesis?  

We talk of her wonderfully solid marriage to a fantastic man, what shade of pink is her favorite at the moment, and how shockingly - her best time of day is now morning.

Shanda: “What hobbies will you take up in Charleston?”
“Where do you envision working?”
“What was your favorite thing about Santa Fe?”

I talk about how much I loved the coffee shop in Santa Fe, and decide on paddleboarding as well as becoming best friends with Sean Brock, considering our mutual love of pork.

At some point (because dietary precepts don’t count in the car) I realize I’m literally pouring Cheetos into my mouth. Pouring. I decided this was actually not a low point, rather it's just what you do when you’re driving cross country pretending to be 20 again: you pour Cheetos, chew endlessly on Twizzlers, and drink way too much fountain Pepsi.



Somewhere else in East Texas we decide on fried okra, BBQ chicken, and a disappointing taco from the taco joint welded to the Shell station. 
Shanda (with a tone of sarcasm and sorority girl foodie): "Do you like think this like local, organic, free range beef?"
Me: "Oh Yes. Definitely yes."  

We listened to Tina Fey talk about breastfeeding, laughing the way we did in Goshen when we would go Baggin’. Baggin’ involves duct taping a fast food to-go bag on top of your car and then driving around town with the radio blaring.
Well-intentioned folks at stoplights then try to alert you to this fast food catastrophe,
“There's a bag on your car!”
You reply, with a confused expression,
“I’m sorry, what? I can’t hear you over the music!”
They yell, they scream, they point, they lean out their car window, they get out of their car,
“THERE’S A BAG ON YOUR CAR!”. 
You then erupt in juvenile laughter. Because, like Tina Fey on breastfeeding, this is always funny.

Driving into New Orleans on the highway surrounded by water, the skyline of the beautiful city emerged, punctured with the Superdome. We discuss the trauma of Katrina that engulfed the space, curious of what the space held for us. 

I can smell the sea. 
I can feel our freedom and our excitement. 
I can taste the imminence of oysters. 
My gratitude for the depth of these simple, timeless things with me in this car is palpable.


Stay tuned for Part 4... Oysters and Beignets in New Orleans!